Salvation

I get to have a catscan saturday... i was excited at first... then i realized i've never been to the hospital... :/

oh well, at least i'll maybe find out whats wrong with my head!!! and thats good. :)

yeah this shows all those people at yrok who thought i had an accent!

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they turned our heat on tonight. how fucking awsome is that. i had to call and complain becuase it's already gone below freezing a few times but thats ok cuz its on now :)

and tht car they came out with that can park itself... yeah... fucking creepy if you ask me.

thats all!!!

i win :)

Oh my sweet revenge
Will be yours
for the taking
It's in the making
baby

I came to a conclusion. and ya know i really hate doing it and try hard not too but sometimes your forced. I have to cut my friendship off with someone i care a lot about because i've always been an extreemly good friend to them- i know some of their other friends and i've heard stories about all of the others and i've always treated them better than all of them (and belive it or not the significant others- they've only ever been treated like crap by them. i find it extreemly sad that i'm a better one) and i've never gotten anything back in return. i never get the same curtisy(sp) or respect i give to them back. I mean i've done things for them that all of their other 'friends' and 'significant others' refuse to do for them and then when they get a new sig. other i get pretty much completely thrown out of the picture just because they dont like me. i mean maybe its just me but does someone deserve that if they've never been anything but a perfect friend to you? not in my world sweety.

it makes me really sad, cuz i care about this person a lot, and even though i never thought i was being treated right as a friend (i always belived in treat people the way you want to be treated, so when i'm nice as fuck to you and give you all the respect in the world and listen to you complain for hours on end about the dumbest shit and drive you too and from places that dont concern me... i expect the same kind of things back) i always kept the friendship up just because i enjoyed the friendship despite that and having them around to joke around with and stuff... but i cant take it anymore, i give and give and give and i get nothing back. ever. i didnt even get so much as a .99 cent card for my b-day after i got something(no not much but it cost all the cash i had at the time) and spent their b-day with them. and this is supposedly a 'good' friend of mine.

their sig. other did something horrible to be, that not even i would do to briana and you all know how much i hate her and i didnt even get defended- and yet i'm supposedly a good friend. wtf. sure i was told i was defended and i'd get an apology... but did i? no. i mean this thing was so bad that... honestly if my sig other had done that to one of my friends... even one of my friends i'm not like best friends with just sort of friends... he'd have been out on his ass in a second. but i guess they dont care about their friendships. i guess thier sig. others stone cold heart has now been embeded into their body and now they have no heart either. its sad. but what the hell am i supposed to do? stick around and be treated like crap? i dont think so.

sucks. I am SO glad i didnt ever go here. i had a bad bug problem not too long ago and thats after i had problems with my cieling leaking AND not only am i pretty sure our janitor dosent clean, but he's also creepy as FUCK. from both his looks and his motions i can picture him being a murderer in a movie ...out of a movie too, but he just looks and acts like the guy that is creepily pushing a sweeky cart full of dead bodys down a hall way whisteling. krista said the same thing. hes so weird. and he just randomly sits in our lounge sometimes doing nothing. *quiver* but whatever, i'm so glad i go to penn state, that place is awsome :)

I wont get to UP untill next year though because i had to drop chinese. she started a little fast but i figured she'd stay that pace so it would get easier once i got used to it but she just started going faster and faster. by the time i late droped it she was giving us 10 new words every other class (we had it 3 days a week) and say the first day she gave us 10 new words is a monday. by the next monday we have to have the CHARACTERS memorized... as in how to write each and every one by memory... and thats after 20 new words that week. thats A LOT of shit to memorize in a week especially when they dont even have a alphabet and your not used to using a language like that. it was crazy. so now i'll be behind in my cedits but i figure if i take like 18 credits next semester and then 2 or 3 summer classes i'll be back on scheduel and after next semester i'll deff be able to get to UP. thats exciting cuz hopefully i can get to live with jenna! :)

I had a dream i was back in the UM marching band with everyone again. it made me sad. i miss marching band :( i wish i could go back. ::tear:: good times.

So We're paying something like 580 a month to live here at albright, and already i've already had problems with a leaky ceiling(and i'm on the first floor) and now i'm having a bug problem. in the span of about 2 hours krista helped me kill about 12 stink bugs and 1 ear wig. that is so uncalled for when we are not only paying so much to live here but its a college campus, their supposed to take care of us when our housing sucks ass. i'm so glad i didnt go here, cuz one guy that does was talking to us when we were complaining about this and he was like "omg i agree with you guys so much, i'm paying like 34,000 a year to go here and... wtf where's my money going!?" this seriously is obsurde, this is why i wish i lived on the PSU campus, everything is SO much nicer there, and its cheaper! wtf.

::sigh:: of course i have mikey to fix all these problems hehe :) such a sweetie. altho i didnt let him come fix the bugs cuz i couldnt find where they were comming from. ugh.

lets go see if an infestation occurded in my room over night (krista let me sleep in her room) :)

ok. this 9-11 shit has really gotten on my nerves. a bad thing happend by some douchbags end of story. i mean why the hell do people feel the need to dwel on things. why do you WANT to be reminded of how sad you were, why do you WANT to remember how people suffered... remember the people sure... but come on now.. let it the fuck go. its over.

yes i'm aware most of you feel completely different, i dont care, i just needed to complain a little, you feel how you feel i feel how i feel- badda bing badda boom. no need to tell me how wrong you THINK i am.

so far college is much more awsome this time around. everyone is SO nice. the people that work here and the people that go here. its like "wait a minute... was that person just nice to me?" cuz after going to YCP as sad as it is i honestly got USED to people being complete ass holes to everyone for no reasons. and the fact that i dont have a roommate is frikin awsome... accept for the fact that i've had problems with my cieling leaking the last few days BUT they supposedly fixed it today so even that problem is gone now (and hopefully will stay gone) so yayness.

so far classes are good too. i'm a little scared for anthropology cuz the professor kinda seems like she's gonna be one of those prof's that think their the only ones that have a class in the entire world and everyone should love that class cuz what they love is the only things worth loving and everything else is a complete waste of time. but we'll see.

oh- and even tho no one reads this the most adorable thing ever- the night my roof started leaking mikey drove up here to fix it at 10pm at night and then came back to re-fix it at 1am monday night/tuesday morn... is that not the sweetest thing ever? i'm still stunned- i seriously had my doubts that good guys acctually existed out there. BUT THEY DO! :D

so... apparently i have no room mate anymore. how strange. apparently she met someone up there she liked enough to move in with? i dont know i could barely hear the lady on the phone but whatever, good news for me! i get a room to myself for a while! weeee!

and... thats pretty much all i have to say. :)

ya know... gotta be honest. all this bad weather freaks me out a little. first katrina, then the strangly bad weather all summer, now another bad hurricane is supposed to hit on the anniversary of Katrina. its just all very strange to me, but hey maybe thats just me.

Today was my b-day altho nothing terribly exciting happend, went to dinner watched a movie and got presants all with my fam. Mikeys in FL, Jenna's in the Poconos(i think), and Heather just dosent really talk to me anymore thanks to her jack ass bf. so no b-day partying for me, but thats ok cuz i wasnt feeling 100% spectacular anyways. I was supposed to go up to my g-rents and go water skiing but that didnt happen cuz there was no point in being up there if i didnt feel well.

I'm not really sure why i update this ever... even if its not very often cuz the only person i ever see update anymore is Eric, everyone else has fallen off the face of the earth. but i felt the need to.

Other than that my room mate seems sain(sp) and down to earth so far... wont it be nice if i dont end up with a crazy fuck for once... i'm hoppin! i have really high hopes for penn state. I've kind of think i've figured out why i have so much trouble in college with the social life and stuff. 90% of the time i look like a prissy/preppy girl, i'm fully aware and i dont care, i simply dress and do my hair and makeup the way i like too, no other reason. but the problem is is that i dont have that personality, i always knew that but i never thought about it too much untill i started hanging out with Mikey again, and i started thinking "i wonder why he talks to me or hangs out with me, i dont look like i fit in with him, why would he even try?" and yet i fit in with him and his group so well, i feel so much more comfortable with them than most people. i dont know what society would classify them as but i know my mom calls them "rockers", and thats the kind of personality i have, but not the kind of person that i look like- and thats my problem. the only people that try to be friends with me are the prissy/preppy people and i just dont fit in with them, i fit in with the "rockers", "goths" , "geeks" or "losers" whatever the hell you want to call anyone outside the preppy/jocky clicks,i mean i dont even like the type of music most of the preppy/prissy/jocky groups listen too, i listen to rock and metal and you'd never guess by looking at me- but those kinds of people never give me the time of day because everyone always assumes i'm part of the other group... so basically i guess you would classify that as me getting judged on how i look, but i dunno. but thats my issue with social life and i dont know how to fix it exactly but... for some reason i just have a better feeling about penn state. less judgemental maybe??? i dunno... but i just have this feeling like my life is finally comming together right, and its real nice.


:)

My mom and i went to OC NY today for the day, it was a fun time. altho one thing i must say- Jersey drivers are the worst drivers on the face of the earth. like seriously i th ought philly drivers were really bad but wow, i really never noticed the utterly horrible drivers there. Second i'm really pissed off at this summer. like i'm just excited for it to end because theres hardly been any summer weather. most of it was clowdy, rainy and not very warm. and then there was that short heat wave, but even most of that was clowdy. wtf. this is the first summer i can remember thats been this awful weather wise. usually its all sun all heat and no rain. and i miss it. your supposed to be able to go outside and tan, and go to the beach, NOT be forced to sit inside for days on end because its cold and rainy and flooded without any electricity anywhere. it makes me sad.

but anyways. it turns out i'm not gong to have to commute to my campus. apparently Penn State Berks and Albright College have an agreement that when Penn State dosent have enough rooms for their students that they can live in some of Albrights housing. So i'm living in a suite at albright with up to 14 (i think, myabe only 12) other Penn STate Berks students. so that should be fun. 12-14 people in a suite, 2 people per room with a common room/living room type thing. so hopefully that should be fun, i think it will be. so yay! altho it'll probably be all freshmen cuz i'm kind of an oddity of a new student at this point. but hey, i dont care as long as their cool people and i FINALLY get a half decent college experience. so yay! i'm excited :) :) :)

I'm taking Chineese in the fall. how cool!? well acctually its a little scary, buuuuttt still exciting and cool :)

still no rooming, but they gave me some off campus possibilities for housing, so we'll look at them and consider it but considering i may only be there for 1 semester it might be kind of difficult with leases and stuff like that. but we'll see. so far Penn state is SO much better than york. everyone i've talked to there is SO frikin nice its not even funny. the Advisor i saw for schedueling is just so nice and so helpfull, which i had 3 different advisors at york and they were all mean and not even close to helpfull. with anything. the one girl in the bookstore acctually taught me how to find my books instead of like york. i mean yeah they'd find your books for ya if you asked them to help you but there were never nearly as nice about it. and the lady that checked us out of the bookstore was just a doll. she was old and she had a whole ocnversation with us. it was great. :D

sometimes i hate them. other times i feel like i want to have some in the future, but i kinda feel like i'll end up beating the living crap out of them... and they sort of frown upon that. I went to Camel beach with my mom on friday, and it was a fun time, but it was also such an awful time just cuz all the kids were so god awfull annoying. I thinki they should have either something like kingswood used to have (or still does i dont know) like adult swim, when it would be like only people 18 and older are allowed in the park. or even whole days like that i dont care, but an amusment park would be SO much fun with out all the annoying kids. no question about it.

oh- you know whats weird? when i got home last night matt brehm was in my house... chattin it up with my brother cuz they played tennis together in hs and were kind of friends, but it was just really weird having matt brehm hanging out in my house, especially after not seeing him for what- 2 years? he was looking through our 10th grade year book with my brother, it was very amuzing. he read Jeff Pilcicki's signiture from it, it was so cute lol. oh memories.

I didnt realize how much i relied on it untill we lost it for 24 hours. we dont usualy lose power so it was weird. but now its back and i'm happy so its all good.

heathers b-day was a disaster- poor her. the day had started out bad for me so i knew it wasnt going to be good. so we all sat around at her bf's house in the dark without electricity untill the storm let up enough to drive a short distance. but of course with all that good luck the resturant we tried to go to had no electricity so we went to the next one down the street which was... an asian fusion cuisine which if any of you know me two things i dont like are non american food and fancry food. the cheapest car in the parking lot was an audi... but since it was heathers b-day kate, kuhn, felicia and i held our toungs and went with it. the rest of the group was happy tho. the bill was like... $280 or something outragous like that. luckily since felicia and i didnt even like the water (yeah it was sparkling water which apparently tastes like crap) we split a $16 dollar meal so we didnt have to spend that much. but yeah there were only 7 of us and we racked up 280... i hate fancy resuraunts for so many reasons.

and of course when we got back the power was still out so we tried to play games with the very few candles and flashlights they had... didnt work so well. we ended up playing truth or dare which was amusing i'll admit but not nearly as good as a board game tourniment like we were planning. so that kinda sucked for heathers b-day, all our plans sucked.

tomorrow we're re-doing it and having a game tourniment, so i'm super excited about that.

other than that- penn state are still being douches and i have the worst bruise on my thy that i have ever seen in my life from water skiing saturday... its crazy.

ya know, i've deffinetly got to say even though fireworks are dangerous, i never thought i'd see one expload on people in my life. but hey- i guess theres a first time for anything. we were pretty close to it so that made it extra interesting. but yeah, the rest of the 4th was fun- had a hot dog roast in my backyard with andrew and his gf and jeff stopped by cuz he wasnt doing anything either it was tastey.

and after the fireworks i went to heathers bf's house and played taboo, lol that was a good time. but when is taboo not a good time?

and i really have nothing of interest to say right now i was just bored...

bath and body works is pissing me off... kind of... kidn of not... hm.

so once summer started myspace started to get boring because i'm guessing theres just not as many people around this area that are into myspace or meeting people, which quite frankly i'm not supprised, there are a lot of snobby people in this general area. so anyways, when that got boring i was sitting here surfing the net and i was trying to find a different site just like mysapce just for fun and something to do, and i found this one called "Tag World" (well acctually first i found true.com which apparently is a dating site so that ended up being rather... 'interesting') but THEN i found tag world which basically is myspace but a little more boring. so la la la i got a bunch of messages and friends requests and the people seem nice ya know jus tlike myspace.... and i get this one message the other day from this guy... it made me just... stare at my computer like wanting to laugh yet just being confused at the same time.

so i saw you profile and I think you deserve a
chance to get to know me... ; ) I think we could get
along well...as friends (don't get any ideas
now)...lol... If you are interested (which I know
you will be). Drop me a line, and if you sound as
interesting as your profile says I might write back ; )"

tell me that dosent make you kind of smile and tilt your head like a little dog lol. out of curiosity i looked at his profile and the whole thing is about himself and how sexy he is and how he's NOT a sex object... with a lot of winky faces. and his picture is one of those typical egotistical guys of their chest... and you could only see a small part of his hip.. but i'm pretty damn sure he's wearing a thong in it... i didnt respond, i was going to and tell him that he was mistaken and i wasnt interested in guys that are really full of themselves like that, but i figured since apparently every girl wants him he wouldnt even think about what ever it was i had to say as long as i wasnt gonna fuck him, there was really no point...i just wanted to share that with you all because i found it rather amusing.

oh, and i am officially applied to penn state and montco for the fall... yeah in case i didnt tell you i'm so not going back to york (unless my some miricle i dont get into not only penn state (yeah there is a possibility i wont get in there cuz one its late and two its not like i have straight A's in all AP classes, but i also didnt get horrible grades so still think i could get in) but also montco, but lets face it, the chances of me not getting into montco? well, thats pretty much non existant.) and i found another reason why york sucks today, i finished my online application for penn state yesterday and called york today to get them to send my transcrips... yeah those hard workers are only ther etill 11:30am on fridays... every other school (INCLUDING MONTCO!!!) are there all day even on fridays... my god york is a sorry excuse for a school. i cant wait till i'm officially not a student there, i think i'm going to have to find a party to go to when that happens.